sien...

im so sien.this world is so sien!im super sien!i feel so empty.empty n empty.sien plus sien = sien!very very sien...empty!somebody save me pls.



p/s:dun knw what to do.

can u tell me why

i dun understand why?
something we never do any wrong things but surely got people will accuse us?poor thing.but no matter what,i will continue living happily!lol!

U

how would i not miss u =)


hey pretty,i miss u!night!XO

p/s:still miss u!

MISS

I MISS HER!I MISS HER!I MISS HER!I MISS HER VERY MUCH!!='(
im really missing her


P/S:im missing u

18/12/2009

well,today stuck at home.i wanna say happy birthday to sha-nisse!happy sweet sweet 16 k?aiyo.u old d.may all ur dreams come true.emm.now im quite hungry.feel lik eating.but no food to eat.n lazy to go out.later going out to cut my hair.cant stand with it anymore,long n hot.


p/s: u're the best thing i never knew i needed XD

im lucky?

well,yesterday was such a great day for me.why?because it is super good.n the feel is nice.i watch zombieland n also princess n the frog.zombieland is ok only,kinda boring princess n the frog ok ok lo.but i think the feeling is great coz u r beside me.haha.well,recently busy busy life.busy with what?actually im also not sure.just knw that i have a lot things to do,but i just throw all the things aside 1st n enjoy my life.well,i get addicted with a song call bad romance.



Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it's free
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh--oh-oooh! )
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
'Cause you're a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love-uuhh)

I want your psycho
Your vertigo shtick
Want you in my room
When your baby is sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
('Cause I'm a freak bitch baby! )
And you know that I need you
I want a bad, bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh! )
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk passion baby
Work it
I'm a freak bitch, baby

I want your love and
I want your revenge
I want your love
I don't wanna be friends

Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ton revanche
Je veux ton amour
I don't wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I don't wanna be friends
(Caught in a bad romance)
I don't wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance!

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance



ps:yes!i want u.

FAKE A SMILE

what can i do now?there is nothing that i can do.can i just cry like a baby?o should i just act like a kid?im really hurt n dun knw what to do.dou hear me?do u hear my voice?u say u love me.but u leave me alone.im not being selfish.but maybe i just really need u.give me the hope,spoil my hope too.i hope u will knw the somebody is me!

miserable feeling.

why am i so pathetic?haha.useless me.fcuking hate this world!cant judge a book by its cover.very pain me.very very pain.bleeding heart.do u wish to save me?im just a worm who is meaningless for everything,feel so hate.im not emo,im not emo.why only me who feel this kinda pain?T_T....

CRYING DEEPLY INSIDE MY HEART!

LCC2009!!

yesterday was a great day!n im very happy with it!hehe.urban outcast get 3rd place in lcc2009!my god.it is so unbelievable.i seriously feel so happy with it,n seriously wanna say tq to all my band members!they're norman ingan,aaron yeoh n huay shan!after all the hardwork n preparation.really appreciate it a lot man!n a lot of things happen among ourself during jamming,but at last,we make it through our urban way n outcast it!wakaka!what nonsense am i talking?after all,really happy!i believe im the happiest person in this moment!=)




ps:urban outcast is heart!

so this is what happen lately...

I think it is such a long time i didnt blog d since my last blog.what happen frm october 6 till now?well,lets see it one by one now.this year my birthday is pretty boring like usual but it is still okay.thanks for all the people that wish me during my birthday.n those accompany me during that day.thank you!some of u make me feel so touch.next,lcc audition,my bands r eligible to final n i feel very happy.after all the hardwork,urban outcast really did it!all my band members r rocks!n the insane too!rocks!all the best in lcc!next,i went AAR concert!Tayson is really a good vocal,he sang 12 songs non-stopping!n his voice is still good,awesome.n the concert is nice!next,i went kl shopping!i bought all kinds of collar shirts.my friends say i look better in collar shirt,n i like that kinda style too.i love my converse shoes too.next,i bought a guitar but it is a normal wan only,an acoustic guitar.music is love,love is music.


sometimes,we are trying so hard to get all the things
sometimes,we are really so sad of everything
sometimes,we are tired of thinking
sometimes,we are so sick of trying
BUT
sometimes,hopes r just surround us



dont ever give up dude!u can be the best if only u think u can!

XD

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hengyuetsiang

XD

emm...sien la...so fann.why so fann?i also dun knw.i dun knw what will happen soon.i really dun knw.weirdo.final finally finish d.now is my holiday.holiday is sien plus nice.nothing to do everyday except sleep.i can be a little pig d.my blog also can become pig.me n my blog can become pig!muahahaha!!

what am i doing now?

Recently,im feeling so lost.1stly,i dun knw what am i doing at all,2ndly,i dun knw what should i do 3rdly i dun knw what can i do.now is midnight 3am,but im still awaking...im waiting for something.i quite sure that im really waiting for something.words can express how i feel now,n words cant tell people what i want now.im confused.im so luan...

talk to the star?

my nephew told me,how good if he is a moon.
i look at him and i smile.
i tell myself i wish i can really be the moon,
so that u're surrouding me all the time.
i wish i can talk to the star always,always,n really always.
u're the shinning star!shine in the sky.

u make me crazier!

Nw is midnight 3.25.but somehow im still awake.cause i knw that im missing u.there is a song that i really wanna dedicate to u....i hope u will receive it.

I never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Till you open the door there's so much more
I never seen it before
I was tryin' to fly
But I couldn't find wings
But you came along and you changed everything
You lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling
And I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier

I watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe
You lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling
And I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier

Baby you showed me what living is for
don't want to hide anymore orrrreee

You lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling
And I I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier
Crazier craizer


this is how much u affect me.

copyright,
ys

=(

Today is really a bad day for me?well,i feel so down and sad now.why am i trusting people fully with my heart but what i get is just doubt and also accusing??when u treat people sincerely but u get back is just shit!hey,enough of ur shit words and eat shit la kid!if u continue living like this,u will just live without conscious.u're not deserve to be a man nor a human.PATHETIC U!learn from mistake so now finally i learn something,not to trust people blindly.


PS:u live with ghost kid!siapa makan cili dia rasa panas.

=(

i dun knw how to describe my feeling now.my mum scolded me n say me like so badly till i become mad n argue with her.well,we keep saying each other.mum,im 20 years old already,can u just give me some freedom?not as in let me go out always is give me freedom!i just hope u will understand me more and understand what im trying to tell u everytime,im big enough to think for myself.im not being ego or what,i feel very pain k!can u pls understand my feeling too??im very stress too!so pls be mature!think for me too!im not a kid anymore!i knw u care about me,i really knw but there is a limit there k!im really stress,i cant tell u how i feel!cause u wun understand too!im sorry,i didnt mean to hurt u too!im really sorry,u dun knw how sad am i.im so useless since last time,i knw i never study before!but now i wun waste money anymore,i will study k!just stop comparing,i seriously hate it!that was my past!so pls!just let me have some peaceful day k!

well,my mid year term is coming soon,my 1st paper is on 25th of july.business mathematics.quite worry for it.cause i haven really prepare yet!but i knw what should i do cause i promise to myself!just study hard,heng yuet siang!or else,u 4ever will only be a failure.


ps:i miss u like usual.wun stop,cant stop n dun knw how to stop!

XOXO

nah!the left wan ming li,center me the right wan lebeh wan.-.-"








the promise of the ice creams.i will never forget!these ice creams are me,yen lee,siew juan n ming li!haha.we look delicious!





i feel very boring lo before going to work.then i decide to on9.and i saw my buddy ming li is on9ing too, she is so free too.then i chat with her lo.here is our conversation after so many months.

ys:hi
ml:wah!u so free ar!didnt go out with ur gf??
ys:me now single d la.
ml:single,i dun believe u're single!coz everything u say u're u still go out with XXX
ys:warao,u so outdated,break so long d la.
ml:aiyo,u never tell me,u r so hua xing.
ys:no,a lot of things happen ma.now rite i like a gal,but she wun choi me wan.
ml:dun worry la.
ys:this time im sure i wun like other gal d.
ml:sien d.u always tell me the same thing.
ys:paisei,how many time u heard me say this d?
ml:uncountable.hahaha
ys:ur head la!
ml:more than 3 time.

then we two counting actually how many time d
and the answer is more than 3 time!

ml:u so 'hua xing',so i wun believe u anymore.
ys:me super loyal!!!
ml:u knw kapoh broke with jj d?
ys:omg!they broke till they broke d.u really so outdated man.
ml:warao,why i dun knw everythings wan.
ys:sure la,u busy studying only.

the conclusion is ming li is so damm outdated!haha

well,lets me say something about ming li k.she is my very close friend since form4.she is going to further study at US soon.(fuyoh,so rich hor).i will miss u de!hehe.u never hear i say miss u before rite?haha.now im saying this to u!MING LI!i sure will miss u a lot wan!='( this so not me.dun geli knw!friend4eva!thanks for ur support all this while!im here to create a poem to my 3 closest friends.

aiya,no time for poem d!continue later!hehe.thats all for now!haha.


ps:true friends are always there for me!

lucky

im always lucky,cause i knw u.there is always a reason behind everything that happen.i will accept the fact n face it but not avoiding anymore.how long can i wait?it is more than what u can expect.XD


ps:nothing is impossible girl

My UNI life?

So now a new life begin XD.a new story is going to start.im reborn as a foundation student.
continue my schooling life.haha.uni life is much more better than my form6 life.coz i can wear a t-shirt with a pants and with a pair of slipper!hehe.i met new friends.and learn a lot of things.there are a lot of things that i need to learn.i like my classmates!they're funny,cute n smart.not like me!so stupid n slow.lolsss....

This is my 1st photo in my blog after 2 years.haha.guai leh.studying.canon took for me wan!thanks=)

ps: impossible is nothing XD

my confession

hey u!i would like to tell u.i like u very much n nearly crazy d.
cause right:
1.im thinking about u all the time
2.im missing u all the time
3.just u n u n u n u n u
4.all about u

u're happy as usual,im sad as usual.cool right?hehe.mad me.

ps:never give up XD

aiyo.im too emotional d.

thanks to ws.haha.u're right.im so angry for what.asshole people plus asshole thinking.i should just dun bother about them.im happy now.hehe.i hope next time no such people spoil my concert anymore!haha.relax....i wun care what they say d!haha.

nice 29th june 2009

yesterday was a nice day for me.everything is just ok.no more insomia!yeshh!now i can sleep better n soundly!happy knowing u 2 months anniversary (huh,sound funny??) i love my university life,im ok with it.i hate account.during account lessons,i will fall alseep.i will open my one eye close one eye.account is just like a sleeping subject for me.really hate account so much.dun knw why.haha.but i will try to fall in love with it soon k!

so random de feeling.

can u see what i can see
can u feel what i can feel
can u knw what u should knw
can u give what u can give
can u just make me smile al the time?=)


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ys

it is over!=)

start from now.everythings will be ok liao.settle all the bad things ad.now right,i feel so syok and relax.no more emoness d wor.sorry if i was so emotinal and harsh before this!im sorry!

ps:well,i just realized MJ is a legend for me.i respect him.i will always remember u!

dont think that u all understand me well!

well,i really don't know what happen till yesterday someone told me something.it is very funny.RIDICULOUS!fuyoh.so powerful sial.i do a special box for some band then revote?then let them won?WHAT THE FUCK!hey people there,for ur information,im not the one who count those votes k!and i guess u all don't know how to respect a competition.the result means everything,so please accept it n respect it!

And PLEASE.don't think that u know me well man!i wont so unfair or so crazy till so pilih kasih k!maybe i really did something that make some people misunderstanding but please it doesn't mean that i will do such thing!what things?for those thought i will do such thing u ownself knw man!

And PLEASE.got anything just talk to me k!dont ever go and spoil other band!cause u seriously will put me into trouble too!u're not a music lover!why?ask urself!respect urself n also music!and for a band that i respect so much but they like put the blame on me,good.there is nothing to do with me man.im also a victim,im just one of the organizer.so please don simply think that i will do such thing when u dun even knw me well.when u dun even knw the truth and my style of doing things!

i seriously learn something frm this case.
here are some moral values that i had discover and wanna share with u all:
1)don't be too naive,and dont act innocent??
2)sometime maybe u really treat others good,but they wont ever know then will treat u like enemy?(this world is so luan)
3)friendly with them but they thought that they are the king or queen.(dun too proud of urself k when u r also one of the childish ass too)
4)sometime when u won't backstep people but they will really gossip u too maybe their mouthsss are too itchy(then go bite something la kids)
5)when u respect them,they dont knw how to respect u too.(dude,u got learn moral wan wat)
6)please find out the truth before u blaming others!!
7)as a human,we cant do what we like man because there are too much of asshole people in this world,they will turn out the whole story and make their own stories!(go write novel better k by using ur wisdom other than making stories and spoil others!!)
8)learn to overcome and solve problems.
9)be patient n be a good thinker.
10)forgive n forget.

that's all that i can share with u all.got anything that bu shuang.i welcome u come n look for me!here is my number 0162251012.find me anytime!haha.not for a fight,but to understand the whole thing.

Im emo!

I knw emo is not good!but i really wanna to be emo now!i feel so suffer!

No messages frm her,
No missed calls frm her,
No calls frm her,
She will never knw it,
There are so many no frm her.
No,No,No,No,No and No.

the feeling like end of the world?who knows?T_T
haha,maybe not end of the world?dun knw what can i do,except typing now.type n type.dun knw what i gonna write too.

im really welcome whoever come save me.save me if u want n if u can!haha.
Mad X 10000000000000000000000000000000

Homosapiens' 1909 concert!

homosapiens concert!at last,i did it with my friends.im missing the concert badly now.i really wanna say thank you to some people!1stly!my committee members!thanks a lot!i will name them out one by one:
1)chan seok ling
2)wong yow kit
3)ngow ka poh
4)tan pei lee
5)amanda
6)grace
7)daniel
8)mei ling
9)lee boon huat
10)heng yuet siang

oh,my god!
i cant believe it.ten of us can organised a concert!honestly la the concert was really messy!haha(paisei) cause the problem of pa system lo.the uncle la say by 1.30 will done all the things.who knws 5.30 oli done.sweat rite??so sorry la k?for all people that went support wan,cause the concert was kinda messy!

2ndly!i wanna say tq to my kai mei2!jenn wi and also huay shan n marilyn too!jenn wi,nice n sexy dance!=)very good.and really thank you for helping me sold a lot of tickets.thanks!and huay shan ar,i knw rite,u sell till can vomit blood,so thanks a lot!marilyn ar,you ar,ok also lo got ask ur dancing gang come n support!hehe*tears fall* im lucky to have god sisters like u all!haha!XD

thirdly!emm....radiance frm mgss!wah,for me,she is a super girl sial!really geng!she impressed me a lot!u're rocks!haha.can sold so many tickets!stephanie kuah!thank you too!u help me a lot.then rite xian yu?a member frm evernew band?he is a good guy!haha.chuak ler.ur name apppear inside my post!thanks!n all my friends!thank you man.i can see who is true friends now.*tears drop*thank you.T_T.jasmine,sze ni,su ai,siew juan n ming li!thank you!and those help me sell tickets wan!really thank you!

lastly,who else to say thank you!all the audience for homosapiens concert!thank you people.no u no this concert!i really enjoy a lot!i hope u people too.n for all the mistake that i had done during the concert.im really sorry for it!i will try to upgrade myself n organize a better concert in the future!

THANK YOU!

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YS

what a day!

yesterday was a bad day for me.after woke up,me n chris prepared ourselves to go mp!actually i feel quite excited coz thought can see my dream girl(she is a evil person)!haha.but sign*speechless* lo...then right i met kiko they all lo,then we go watch movie!17 again.that show ar,ok ok lo.haha,not bad la,but not good.lols.then right night time we go eat satay celup!haha.then night i met them at pure!how long i never been there d ar?i also 4get d.actually i dun lik clubbing but yesterday im so lonely n sien then go lo.so weird yesterday im in love with that noisy music that can conquer my heartbeat,n im wondering,it will take how long for me to fall in love with clubbing??haha!then right i fetch my friends home.4 of them sit behind.it is 3 am early in the morning.oh!shit!u guess what happen.we saw stupid police blocking.damm it.greedy fella them.actually 4 person sit behind is ok wan k,but they so money face!say wanna saman me.what can i do?i talk to them lo.say,bang tolong la.tolong la.but inside my heart i wish i could just slap his face!he is so damm greedy.give him 30 not enough.then say so many people there,takkan so little.at last i gave him rm50 then he oli let us go!bad day rite?haha.me chuak that that time.he ask me how old,i say 20!haha.then after fetch one of the gal home.we go limbongan yamcha!haha.then reach hotel about 4 sumthing!exhausted!end of my day!XD

Sleep vs Awake

what is the time now.but too bad i still cant sleep.missing who =( ?missing u!im wondering,who is missing me now too?i guess maybe no one.im weird rite?dun u think that in my world there is only love?haha.recently right,a lot of people keep saying be gal la,be gal la.tired of it ler.dun repeat it again n again can o not?just fang guo wo laa.i enjoy my life now.be a tb also good wat.dun care about others.this is my life.rocks it through my ways.thanks for ur concern all my friends.but that is not what i want.what i want is just so simple----->live worthly n enjoy my life!haha.cant wait to see u!XD

My Life

There are a lot of things that we cant accept,
There are some facts that we cant believe,
There are many hurts that we cant take it,
Always wish that there is an angel besides me,
Always hope that there is something good after bad,
Always wait for miracles.

MISSING

somebody want u.somebody need u.
somebody dream about u every single night.
somebody love u,without u is lonely.
somebody is really missing u.missing u badly!

the real side of me?

sometime,im lost.
sometime,i feel so hate.
sometime,im mad.
sometime,i feel so sad.
u're the reason tears drop on my keyboards.
i really cant understand,why why n why?
why u wanna be the one who hurt me so much?
hate every words that you say,coz the things will change.
sorrie for being emo.i will be okay soon!haha.
FORGIVE U=FORGET ALL

happy knowing princess one month anniversary!

she drives me crazy,drives me wild.cutting me with her knife but the feeling is all i want.

29th of april.she appear in my life.frankly,she did nothing.but whenever i get her reply,im always putting a smile on my face.she is the one who draws thousands of smiles on my daily life.she colours my world.my world is colourful now.she is important for me.n im effin effin like her.XD i HEART U! ^_^

puke!

oh!damm it!u make me feel so disgusted.i wish to give u a slap so that u can wake up.but please la,a gal lik u 4ver wun knw ur wrong wan la!so rough n no brain!pls la!be mature la k?get my blood bust!i wish i no need to contact with u anymore.whenever i heard ur fake voice,make me puke!!angry man.where got such brainless gal in this world?i cant believe n that gal is u!geli sial!!!

to the noob noob little princess!

who ar?the noob wan lo?hehe.knw who?haha,guess lo.make me smile all the time!u're rock!

dedicated to little princess!

yesterday,i found that myself is so lucky.
today,i found that myself is so lucky.
tomorrow,i knw that i will be still lucky.
cause there is a little princess appear in my life!
so im really the lucky wan!

little princess.winks!

=P

wang le ai.

standing here all alone,winds blow,feeling so cold.
waiting for u,but our distance is just too far.
sometimes,i wish that i could lose all my memories.
sometimes,i hope that u're smilling at me.

turn on the light,but yet im still feeling that it is very dark.
make my move,i take a step forward.
but no one is besides me,walking alone.
i bang all kinds of things,im hurt.