hopeless....

Well,today is a very very worse day for me.i thought i will be happy...but im not...today is my close friend jenn's birthday...we go gogoktv celebrate...but im not really happy...well,fyi,im single now....im sad...depression...she is careles about me,well....
feeling so sad,why that she cant understand me lik how i give her...all the cares,loves n etc...
now i feel that i even lose to a necklace..even a necklace...im nothing...
u knw o not....every words that u say,breaking my heart...heavily broken
i feel that im useless...
do u knw that im waiting....
say it when u mean it,
mean it when u say it,
i trust u...
i will trust u...
wish u're here,wish im there when we need each others...
waiting is so suffering n torturing...
but it is worth when we want something desperately...