where did i go wrong?

shit,i dislike my temper.why cant i just patient all the time?why cant i be patient.shit me.i guess i was too hurry n too harsh.sometimes,it is really hard for me to think peacefully.what should i do now??someone guide me please?why loving someone sincerely also very pain de,i hope that person will knw,n look at me with her heart,love me with all her heart,i dun like sharing.im not childish,im not stubborn,i just seriously need ur attention,even a small thing or little thing u do will make me smile sweetly.smiling from the bottom of my heart.i try my best to please everything.please,pray to god that everything will be okay soon.

*pray sincerely*

ps:for me two is better than one?how about u?