a pair of drumsticks

well,i need a pair of drumsticks.im craving for it.what kinds of drumsticks i want?well,actually the drumsticks that im asking for is a kind of spirit.something that can lead me to my dreams land.i don wish to fall,i wish to continue chasing my dreams.i need to hold on tight.i need!and i will find a drumstick which suit me the most!i can do it!

i drop my tears

u will ask me why,and i will tell you why.

currently,im working at mp,selling shoes.n today it was such a wonderful day for me,i drop my tears for it.Got a family came my working shop today,malay family,when i was standing inside,i saw a guy keep flipping at the discount shoes,those very cheap wan,then i not really care la,then walked away.till after that my manager told me,got one family she serving is so pity,she feel pity towards them.well,so i went out n have a look at them.well,it was the guy who was flipping those discount shoes.frm the appearance,can see that,they are not a rich family.a mummy,a daddy and a cute daughter.mummy a bit fat,daddy got tummy but their daughter is so adorable.very quiet n sitting between her parents.and she look at me n smile sweetly.i think she is only around 4 to 5 years old.her dad choose a cheap shoes,it is only around rm30.Then while they are waiting for my manager to take the shoes for the daddy to try,her dad like playing with her daughter,wanna punch her,but didnt really slap la..then her mummy walk around.then saw the discount shoes for kid.50% discount.she brought the shoes to her daughter and then let her tried.the size is just nice.then she keep teasing her daughter ask her want or not.her daughter smile so damm sweetly,very sweet n super cute!really cute.i can see her happiness when her mum was asking her.then her mum ask her dad want buy or not.her dad said ok.the shoes is only rm15 after discount,but it is really nice.after that,her mum took her wallet out,only left few bucks inside it,so she took out the ic holder and then took out money frm there,frm my view,i can see that there r only 3 pieces of rm50.so she took out one and wanna use it for the payment.then they move already and went to the counter to pay the bill,


By the time i was looking at the daddy tried his shoes and without really care about the design,he tried few design,cause all he wanted is just a right size,he not really care about the shoes design.i feel very pathetic and sad,and when i saw her daughter tried the shoes d and showing her contented and happy face,my tears drop,but no one really see it...

At that moment,i ask myself.where is the meaning?what i want.i admit i have been lost for a long long time,it was such a long time i dun have such feeling till i met this family.thanks god,i saw a lot of things...really a lot.and all these i cant buy it with money.

I realised when im getting older,and im growing frm years to years.all the innocent thinking gone.once i step in this society.i start to change.where is the heart should i hold on?the right thinking?till today,i only found it again.


Tears drop from my eyes,this time,im saying it with sincerity...


*so i knew it