FUCK!

well..im tired to being a nice person....wondering why i wun really angry n fight with people!why im so weak!so im here now!i wanna express my feeling!scold something that i never scold before!paisei...it sound a bit rough but then just live with it dude!fuck u!fuck the world!ma de!everytime act innocent!do d admit la..i feel geli man!why le??xiasuei oli!dun think urself is an angel k??u r not!we all r sinful k?i admit im a sinner...im a bad person...i wanna slap people....scold as much as i want!haha!gi siao man!nothing to do.....feel lik wanna scold people now n someone can fight with me not?........suck life le sometime.....i dun knw why??feel so tired with myself....i hate myself....being so paranoid n obviously im not an optimist person......feel lik this world like to against me....sien sien sien!o the problem is with myself?god....where is my doctor?i wanna see d....mental problem...hahahaha....so u all feel lik wanna fuck this blog rite?then just diao it la!come n diao!!fuyoh!hate myself man!lame...lame...lame.......

merry chirtsmas!

merry chirstmas!well....hihi to no one....emm....today is 25th,yesterday i just passed a very meaningfull but a bit bored christmas....i feel so bad for my dear...coz rite...it seems lik a very boring day for her...acc me go church oli....so kelien!sob2...T.T....sorie k!countdown that day im sure will be better!hehe....well....i received a present frm her....honestly la before she gave me i already knw what she will give d....so not really excited!sound so cruel rite coz i speaked the truth...but dun worry....i lik it k?what she give i also lik!haha better then nothing lo.....tq!my dear!feeling so sien la christmas....lik nothing oli today...cant go out...stuck at home....raining somemore now....haiz......friendship?well....now i really wanna settle this problem...i n my buddy were in a cold wars?although not really but obviously this is a problem that appeared already....scare to trust...she changed??o i changed d?i guess all of us r changing...say bye to the old wan...but usually old wan is the best not?no one knws.....u knw?but i really miss that moments...our memories....haha..walao...say till lik so geli...love lik that...hehe...but really la...why le...coz of a gal??haiz....maybe i care more then her dun care....so now im ready to wake up!i hope they will be happy...n i hope someone will wake up!a lot of people still live in their own world!sign...............lastly,merry x'mas again......god bless k!

feeling suck...

save by today
well....i really don knw why im feeling this....i guess i hate it!i hate my ex that so selfish....hate hate hate...but i guess i cant really hate her...i think that i hate myself more....why i will lik her before this??what make me so serious with her??hell knw it!this reallly cabar me...i hate lose!im just lik a loser now....well....even love can be a game for me....i hate it!loser!loser!loser!loser!im a loser!no one knws how i feel...i feel sorrie for my gf.....but i really feel sad....dun worry i just miss my ex but not really lik...coz she give me the feeling of my 1st true love....but i guess its just an illusion...sometime i really stuck in the past....maybe im too kiasu....i dun knw how...i feel so lonely....anyone knws that i need loves too?i scare im always alone...there will be someone to save me not??telling people what i feel just will make them feel that im really stupid n lame...i dun want!but i need loves...im not playful as people thought....im regret what i had did before...why dun people just give me a chance again?????serious with me?just serious with me girl....i will show u what is love!n i will love you fully by using my heart!enough of crab...

talk about today....today....early in the morning....i went out d,go eat chicken rice with boon huat n his brother....well...he is kinda nice person but sometime his attitude just lik a kid i cant stand with it man...so kek.....n then we go meet out with other ycc friends...then we walk around to sell tickets...what tickets?im lazy to explain now.....well....today i really feel so blue n moody i also nt really knw why......weird!!somehow i miss gf!haha!