Ponteng...

Today didnt go school....coz whole class pakat liao....2ml also....we'r going to have our economic paper this wednesday n friday...i hope later i can really study for my eco lo,dun want to disappointed mr.hong....haha.....i hope my trial faster finish....but i scare that time passing too fast....god,i want to leave mhs so much but im so reluctant too...it is my school life,after this im not able to go through all this again....feel so reluctant....but i can do nothing,this is only a thing that i can do now which is enjoy school life n waiting the time to pass....agree??what gonna happen in future??u knw?i knw?no one knws....so just start our day with a simple smile =)

Cheating

I hate a thing call cheating...i dun wish i will cheat by someone especially the person that i care the most....i hope i wun get any hurts....i wanna to stay happy...

Thinking back all the things,i wanna ask myself...what i can do to set myself free now?why everytime im the one that trying so hard to change?why noone can knws im really trying so hard...even U also make me sad....i wish u're my angel.....by my side always but who gonna knws,my angel is the one hurts me most,give me hopes but cruely took back all the happiness even i dun wan to give it back....i try to stop,i try to hold,i try to change but so what??so what?lols.......so wake up!

In this life,we really need to learn to be strong,loves,promises all will gone without our willingness....be strong!wake up!get over all the things....the heart that bleeding all the time,it is time to get up!try something new,set urself free!think for urself.....live for urself!cruel to urself so that u can learn how to survive...too much to enjoy in this life....slowly learn!slowly enjoy.....learn learn n learn!agree?

Tears so what...tears is nothing...drop my tears again??nope,not going to do this again.tired.n it is enough....learn to appreciate.learn to think.learn to accept.so what??people can understand?noone can.*smile* .........so dun think too much!!do something for myself now!

There is a thing call hope.as long as u believe that hope is after all the sadness,i think my hope can really reach!=)

hopeless....

Well,today is a very very worse day for me.i thought i will be happy...but im not...today is my close friend jenn's birthday...we go gogoktv celebrate...but im not really happy...well,fyi,im single now....im sad...depression...she is careles about me,well....
feeling so sad,why that she cant understand me lik how i give her...all the cares,loves n etc...
now i feel that i even lose to a necklace..even a necklace...im nothing...
u knw o not....every words that u say,breaking my heart...heavily broken
i feel that im useless...
do u knw that im waiting....
say it when u mean it,
mean it when u say it,
i trust u...
i will trust u...
wish u're here,wish im there when we need each others...
waiting is so suffering n torturing...
but it is worth when we want something desperately...

Angel.....

My life was flashing before my eyes.a second later,i walked n realized.my heart had crashed and burned in shame.you pulled me from the flames.i took ur hand n u helped me upon my feet.i confessed but you had forgiven me.there's is courage in the truth u said.our love will never end...you shield me from danger,you're my shelter.you're my hiding place.there's an angel on my shoulder,here tonight.making sure that im alright.when im falling fast,you rescue me,you love unconditionally,and when im cold n so alone.back in ur arms i feel at home.i pray that u will always be,a guardian angel.sent for me.my dream comes between us every now n then.i make mistakes,get in troubles,time n again.i ain't proud of who im.when im down,you understand.blinded you can always seem to show the way.you're the light.you're the reason im here today.if u cry,i will cry,so dry ur eyes.there is an angel on my shoulder,here tonight.making sure that im alright.when im falling fast you rescue me,you love unconditionally.and when im cold and so alone.back in ur arms i feel at home.i pray that you will always be,a guardian angel.sent for me...

RUN

i can choose to run away..but i cant hide it....im feeling sad n my heart gets colder,i need someone to cares for me?what love can do?me ashamed of my own,i walks alone on the road...in this cruel world,there is no one to call my name....before i escape,i kill my own loving heart,the good in myself will be an end.........what the nonsense that im writing now?hell knw.....dreams the world far away........tired....

FUCK!

well..im tired to being a nice person....wondering why i wun really angry n fight with people!why im so weak!so im here now!i wanna express my feeling!scold something that i never scold before!paisei...it sound a bit rough but then just live with it dude!fuck u!fuck the world!ma de!everytime act innocent!do d admit la..i feel geli man!why le??xiasuei oli!dun think urself is an angel k??u r not!we all r sinful k?i admit im a sinner...im a bad person...i wanna slap people....scold as much as i want!haha!gi siao man!nothing to do.....feel lik wanna scold people now n someone can fight with me not?........suck life le sometime.....i dun knw why??feel so tired with myself....i hate myself....being so paranoid n obviously im not an optimist person......feel lik this world like to against me....sien sien sien!o the problem is with myself?god....where is my doctor?i wanna see d....mental problem...hahahaha....so u all feel lik wanna fuck this blog rite?then just diao it la!come n diao!!fuyoh!hate myself man!lame...lame...lame.......

merry chirtsmas!

merry chirstmas!well....hihi to no one....emm....today is 25th,yesterday i just passed a very meaningfull but a bit bored christmas....i feel so bad for my dear...coz rite...it seems lik a very boring day for her...acc me go church oli....so kelien!sob2...T.T....sorie k!countdown that day im sure will be better!hehe....well....i received a present frm her....honestly la before she gave me i already knw what she will give d....so not really excited!sound so cruel rite coz i speaked the truth...but dun worry....i lik it k?what she give i also lik!haha better then nothing lo.....tq!my dear!feeling so sien la christmas....lik nothing oli today...cant go out...stuck at home....raining somemore now....haiz......friendship?well....now i really wanna settle this problem...i n my buddy were in a cold wars?although not really but obviously this is a problem that appeared already....scare to trust...she changed??o i changed d?i guess all of us r changing...say bye to the old wan...but usually old wan is the best not?no one knws.....u knw?but i really miss that moments...our memories....haha..walao...say till lik so geli...love lik that...hehe...but really la...why le...coz of a gal??haiz....maybe i care more then her dun care....so now im ready to wake up!i hope they will be happy...n i hope someone will wake up!a lot of people still live in their own world!sign...............lastly,merry x'mas again......god bless k!