~LoVe AbOvE aLL~

难道我错了??

2011-11-27T17:12:00.002+08:00

难道我做错了?我不知道,我还是一样的懦.乱,慢,逃避.也许这样是最好的.

fake a smile like usual =)

2007-2011

2011-11-22T02:25:00.002+08:00

time flies.5 years gone.now im already 22...read back my old post.i can feel the changes that happen for me.i was really sick in doing things.i guess im mad type =) give a smile to myself.but somehow.i think i can be a betterman!!!

send someone to love me,i need to rest in arms,
keep me safe from harm,in pouring rain...

well,trust is the only thing that important for love.i must have it...

all the best heng ys!

wth

2011-09-18T08:40:00.001+08:00

everyone got their limit.i keep quiet doesnt mean im wrong....just u cause the pain in my heart!what kinda friends u are?i was stp n childish for trusting everything that u guys say.but now im fully awake.....wake me up when september end!!!

angry!

2011-09-18T08:32:00.003+08:00

im very angry!what i deserve that kinda treatment???what i do was really treat u as friend.but would u give a damm on how i feel?u guys know how to use mouth talk only.do u guys really use heart to feel?i was really too innocent in believing what others say,now now i can see the true colour of human!all i have now is disappointment!am i deserve it?laughing at myself...i remember all the time we pass through what what u give me is just a piece of shit!i see...so this is call friendship that u have called??whoah..it is too deep n i cant understand it.i still need to learn a lot man to be fake in life.pls forgive me that for not having such talent in my life.stay away from my life.i wont remember u anymore!i will in peaceful.i no need nonsense friends in my life anymore.what i need is only true friends.get lose loser.and this smile is for u!!=)
and a last word for u is "FUCK OFF BITCH"!

what what what

2011-04-12T15:27:00.002+08:00

life is really hard...lol....i tried my best.why cant u see it?lol..ist a bad thing..really bad thing i did?what can i do...when my heart already torn into pieces and bleeding all this while?am i too weak?can i admit that im lost.im turning in the dark circle...

im missing

2011-03-04T14:46:00.000+08:00

im really trying my best not to think!not to think!not to think!i feel heartache,but im really missing u.

im lost!!

2011-03-02T14:55:00.002+08:00

i do something i think i should n then i shouldnt!im lost!i think im loosing everythings!im suffer!pain!what can i do to make myself feel better?pls dun make it ur way!what u think is not really work when u r just thinking that will make me feel better!!!!

illusion

2010-12-18T19:09:00.002+08:00

well.i dun knw why im feeling this...i do what also no energy.i think and think,and i will keep thinking about it.i knw it.i really knw it.

uselsss

2010-12-11T16:35:00.002+08:00

always think that im better than what i expect.but actually im not.
i knw im not but i wish im the one.
i really hope,really hope.why they are so talented.
im feeling suffer.minds blowing...

a pair of drumsticks

2010-09-26T15:55:00.002+08:00

well,i need a pair of drumsticks.im craving for it.what kinds of drumsticks i want?well,actually the drumsticks that im asking for is a kind of spirit.something that can lead me to my dreams land.i don wish to fall,i wish to continue chasing my dreams.i need to hold on tight.i need!and i will find a drumstick which suit me the most!i can do it!

i drop my tears

2010-09-10T02:51:00.002+08:00

u will ask me why,and i will tell you why.

currently,im working at mp,selling shoes.n today it was such a wonderful day for me,i drop my tears for it.Got a family came my working shop today,malay family,when i was standing inside,i saw a guy keep flipping at the discount shoes,those very cheap wan,then i not really care la,then walked away.till after that my manager told me,got one family she serving is so pity,she feel pity towards them.well,so i went out n have a look at them.well,it was the guy who was flipping those discount shoes.frm the appearance,can see that,they are not a rich family.a mummy,a daddy and a cute daughter.mummy a bit fat,daddy got tummy but their daughter is so adorable.very quiet n sitting between her parents.and she look at me n smile sweetly.i think she is only around 4 to 5 years old.her dad choose a cheap shoes,it is only around rm30.Then while they are waiting for my manager to take the shoes for the daddy to try,her dad like playing with her daughter,wanna punch her,but didnt really slap la..then her mummy walk around.then saw the discount shoes for kid.50% discount.she brought the shoes to her daughter and then let her tried.the size is just nice.then she keep teasing her daughter ask her want or not.her daughter smile so damm sweetly,very sweet n super cute!really cute.i can see her happiness when her mum was asking her.then her mum ask her dad want buy or not.her dad said ok.the shoes is only rm15 after discount,but it is really nice.after that,her mum took her wallet out,only left few bucks inside it,so she took out the ic holder and then took out money frm there,frm my view,i can see that there r only 3 pieces of rm50.so she took out one and wanna use it for the payment.then they move already and went to the counter to pay the bill,

By the time i was looking at the daddy tried his shoes and without really care about the design,he tried few design,cause all he wanted is just a right size,he not really care about the shoes design.i feel very pathetic and sad,and when i saw her daughter tried the shoes d and showing her contented and happy face,my tears drop,but no one really see it...

At that moment,i ask myself.where is the meaning?what i want.i admit i have been lost for a long long time,it was such a long time i dun have such feeling till i met this family.thanks god,i saw a lot of things...really a lot.and all these i cant buy it with money.

I realised when im getting older,and im growing frm years to years.all the innocent thinking gone.once i step in this society.i start to change.where is the heart should i hold on?the right thinking?till today,i only found it again.

Tears drop from my eyes,this time,im saying it with sincerity...

*so i knew it

empty

2010-08-16T23:41:00.002+08:00

maybe was trying...
was trying to hold....
maybe just walked apart...
maybe the timing is spending my heart....
empty...
everything is a lie,
we live in a lie....
we live in pain...
life with ho mercy...
burning ur heart with fire...

happy day!!

2010-07-20T02:11:00.002+08:00

yessshh!!i got 14.4 over 20 for my bmg!i knw this is not high enough!!but it is a good news for me!1st time of me experience this.i feel excited n happy!haha.worth it!now i just hope i can do well in the rest of my paper!happy happy!!today is a good day for me!went for interview just now!at gogo...about bmg wan,got free drink then went arena,mr koh the jetty incharge treat us the whisky!i drink a bit!whisky plus coke!haha then rite went for duck mee!haha!

today was a good good day!n i knw 2ml will be better =)
shinning hope plus shinning star!im near by baby!!

peace...whee~~~~~~~~~~~~ XD

tired

2010-07-07T03:41:00.001+08:00

!!!!!tired!!!
and i feel so hate!!!
hate hate hate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what the hell im doing here??????????????
geram sial.........................hate n hate!!!!!!
working!studying n fighting everyday.tired.i want a better life.

cry =(

!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-06-24T03:43:00.003+08:00

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

smile?

2010-06-24T03:14:00.002+08:00

emm.i dun like to smile.coz i feel that my smile is kinda weird n silly.i hate my smile...but i like to see people smile.emm.why i like to see people smile?cause by seeing people smile,they can replace my smile.i no need to smile n they will smile for me...

i hate smile......
cause im complicated......

自己

2010-06-22T01:48:00.001+08:00

问自己到底累不累?问自己到底还可以吗?问自己怎么了?
我很爱泪,我已经快停下脚步,不想在想那么多.
累,我是人类,我很累,但我的泪更累.
很累!请不要把我弄的更累!我已无力承受!
不是就不是.不要在说了!我不是了不起!我只是玩不起!
我累了...

不知不觉我的眼泪掉下来了.

stress

2010-06-20T19:34:00.000+08:00

u tell me that is call friends?i pui!friends??u r just some selfish ass!!!so how?u tell me!friends!friends!pui pui!!!stress coz u!

a melody frm my heart

2010-06-10T02:28:00.003+08:00

Im feeling moody,and i cant see any mood tonight,
Im feeling lost,i cant find my direction,
Im feeling exhausted,im breathing hardly,
Im feeling sick,sick of all the things around me,

Part 1

I walked into the jungle myself,i moved my first step by using my left leg,then with my right leg,step by step,i was walking slowly on the mud.My shoes were sticked with all the sludge.I walk by a tree,and i stood under the tree,seeing the leaves falling pathetically from the tree,i stretched my hands,the leaves dropped on the palm of my both hands.i hold the leaves tight in my hands,i made my movement by further more,and i saw a river in front of me,and there is a bridge there too,i walked to the bridge,i took a look on the river from the top of the bridge,i could see myself clear by looking on the reflection of the river,then i stood for a moment,i look at the sky,i can see the sunny sun,the sun was round,very very round n deeply inside my heart,i feel so burst,i feel so hot,i took a tissue from my pocket,i used it to wipe my sweat.i remembered it was a very hot day,and im waiting for the night to come....

Alone

2010-06-10T02:24:00.002+08:00

Well,how do u feel,do u feel the same as me?
the feeling that i have now is confusing...
yes,im lame n weak in decide things.

but now i feel so alone

i dun wish to have an empty heart anymore,i wanna fulfill my life with other stuff,someone pls change my thinking pls,i cant live like this,cause i will be the loser if continuing avoid n escape frm the fact....

and im lonely,very lonely,
and im alone,very alone,
and im feeling cold,very cold,
and im down,very down
and im sick,sick of myself,
and im hate,hatress is coming now,
and im demanding,very brainless,
and im crazy,always crazy,
and im suck,suckest on the earth...

im im im,what am i?a failure?

*i will never knw

YES,I NO NEED.

2010-06-10T02:20:00.002+08:00

Yes,i know im a sucker,im suck in a lot of stuff,i cant managed all my things well,im tired,really tired.im suck in studies,suck in love,suck in friendship,suck in family relationship,suck in business.why im so suck?knw why?cause im a sucker.

i no need youuuu!!
i no need youuuuu!!
i no need youuuuuu!!

i dun wan to need u,but i think i want u....

inconclusion.im suck.well,suck!

Im only 20++

2010-06-01T23:10:00.002+08:00

well,recently im so stress!u tried my best d k!dun pressure me!why there are no people who can understand my effort?my hardwork?i try my best!my real best k?????i cant deal with it!stress enough!i dont want to fail as a human k!im not supergirl n im not god too!everyone got their limit!same to me too!!

我的感受

2010-05-21T00:27:00.002+08:00

我真的不想说再见,害怕在也见不了,真的舍不得
舍不得,不舍地,你别走...好吗?
我真的真的很有着不错的感受,或者这只是想引起你的注意,
我知道我对你来说只是很平凡,像天空中的其中一块云,
但我也可以很耀眼只要你有心,那太阳会从我这上阳,
彩虹会环绕着我,鸟儿会飞过.

我想你了,你可以想我吗?

心不知不觉的碎了,i hate love!

2010-05-17T11:33:00.000+08:00

emmm,heart heart heart heart break!
emm,hate love.love is what?
love is just a kind of illusion?
n i dun have any love,
im always alone,n alone.
im just a creep,weirdo....
what the hell im doing here??i dun belong here!
she running out again~~~~~

emo

2010-04-18T20:13:00.000+08:00

im so emo,
i feel that im so useless,
im nothing,
im suck,
im so dead,
im a zero...

life is still life

2010-04-17T00:58:00.002+08:00

thanks to the god...my mum is ok!i hope that my dad will be fine too...
love converse so much!hehe...
final coming,scare scare
homo2 coming,worry worry
i love my life still no matter what
never give up n learn to give in
be the best n beat the rest
breath in breath out
wooaahhh...im still alive!haha

silver colour

2010-04-09T00:54:00.002+08:00

im feeling so down now,i dun knw why...
i hope i can get those friends who really care about me,
why i cant get the kinda treat that i deserve,
sometime,i really feel so sad,so so sad,
i hate being alone,i hate being neglect,
and i dun like people simply accuse me,
and i hope people can understand me too,
i give give give,all my best,im using my heart to treat people,
but what i get sometime is only misunderstanding n pain,
pls think for me too!i ain't robot,
why cant u all knw how im feeling??
do i deserve that kinda thing!!
selfish people!selfish thinking n selfish friends!!
my god,care for urself but not the rest,
bullshit,bullshit.well never mind!

THIS TIME IM SERIOUSLY
i promise my friends!her name is shu ping,thanks for her concern always,
i wanna change myself.i will!i must!i will do it!
i deserve a change,n i deserve a better treat.
start frm now,i will live through my own life.

U SUCKS!!!

ouch...

2010-04-05T00:40:00.002+08:00

ouch...
day by day,
year by year,
im still me,
cause me is always me,
cause you are still you,
cause we are still us,
cause they are still them,
cause he is still him,
cause she is still shim,
the earth still running with the sun,
the moon still shine with the star.
and im still waiting for something....

kekasih gelapku

2010-04-04T01:29:00.002+08:00

well,who willing to be my gf?lol...i guess no one.haha.dont knw why all of sudden im so emo.this world is damm cruel.fcuk it through my way sial.kekasih gelapku is so nice!i look back n stuck a while.thinking,why should i stop here?should i continue?
recently,im very busy,i was hoping i can get the best.but why cant i get?hope is so nice but yet hard...

IM BACK

2010-03-29T03:56:00.003+08:00

well,well....recently i was so busy..let's see what happen k my whole last week...

sunday-my band!urban outcast joined the battle of the band organised by mmu malacca!!well.we were awesome!n we did our best for the competition d!rocks!my cousins n my mum purposely went mmu just to support me n vote for band!thank you!!=) well,the next day they ponteng school cause by the time the thing end already midnight.maybe that was one of the reason they used to ponteng lo!haha.so they stay my place!12 something we reach home.my cousin form4 wan diana was busy using my laptop on9 lo.then my cousin both form 4 and me de,were busy reading comic.we love comic!haha.till so late.we only asleep!

it was my semester break lo last week

monday-emm.sleep till 12something.lol.then rite my cousins woke me up d lo.clever lo them ask me bring them for movie!then at last,we went dp around 3 something.we watched lovely bones!well,it is a great movie for me!i love the story line!n i love the heroin of the movie!she is so pretty n cute!awesome.go for the movie guys XD

tuesday-sleep till 1.30pm(im a human but not a pig)...lols...then rite i guess i went out kua..not really remember.lols

wednesday-i guess i sleep till 1.30pm too.then right lazy here lazy there.then plan to study but right end up playing computer games.lol.at night,went out with my friends n his gf!we went station one lo.meet one of my friends.she is a designer.coz we need someone to design stuff for our company!i ate a burger ayam late in the night!i was so full!

thursday-sleep till 2.30pm.lol.seriously mad liao.then rite wake up,watch tv,read comics then rite my eyes cant tahan d,i keep yawning,at 3.30 o went sleep till 5 only wake up.once i wake up,i bath.then went out,were having a date with my mmu friend,went for movie!we watch under the mountain.god,the show for me is so funny,a bit stupid,it was a boring show!haha.but overall ok lo the show.then right i remember it was a raining day,i went jetty.thunder is so loud,skies r so dark,but i still love the night!

friday-emm,well,i choose to stay home.plan to study de.but once i open the book i will get distrated by other thing.1st thing is tv!my mum was watching a singapore movie lo.then i also watch with her liao.cham.so end up i watch till mid night 3 only sleep n put my studies aside.die.

saturday-early in the morning,i guess 11 something lo.my god brother wake me up d.well he come fetch me n we were busy preparing all the things to bring to kl!well,outcast enterprise was having an event.we been tailor kl!we rocks the night!tailor is awesome!the students there are nice,friendly n rich!lols.i make new friends!well,the event end around 10 something.after waiting for my friends.we go back malacca,around 2 something reach malacca!then we go mamak opposite my shop there,i ate half place of nasi goreng chili padi m half of roti telur!full gila.XD

sunday-emm.woke up at 11 something.lol.gene fetch me at one thirty lik that.we went mmu there!there was an event there.i spent my day at mmu today!wooahh~~~ christine teach me account!thanks bro!haha!n yin hua as well.thanks my fiends!then night i went micro de event!it was awesome.there are so many talented musician at malacca!awesome!well.11 something,i went src there study with my friend!she teach me account patiently!n im fully understand!thanks for spending ur time just to teach me!thanks!=)

n today is already 29/3/2010 early in the morning now is 4am,im still awaking,writing my blog.haha!i got 8am class...got to bed now!night!

i love my life now!life is meaningful!XD XD XD
nights are always young!!!!!peace!! =)

the recent me

2010-03-10T01:31:00.002+08:00

It is such a long time i blog since my last update.well,there are too many things that happen recently.and i was like unexpected.i cant believe those things will happen.but i gonna tell myself,yes!i got over you,u're not worth perhaps.never mind.start frm this moment,i wont really believe love anymore.
YES!finally Outcast Enterprise is done!it is a good start man!i love music!i love the studio too!
YES!finally Evo Event Enterprise is done too!it is a good start too!
so recently really busy with my business stuff!but im happy coz it can keeps me frm thinking emo stuff!

i don wanna pain anymore,i don wanna,i don wanna miss u
i don wanna hurt anymore,i don wanna,i don wanna see u
i don wanna love anymore,i don wanna pain,i don wanna hurt.

silince night kills me.i say shhhhh n stuck there.....

where did i go wrong?

2010-02-09T02:32:00.002+08:00

shit,i dislike my temper.why cant i just patient all the time?why cant i be patient.shit me.i guess i was too hurry n too harsh.sometimes,it is really hard for me to think peacefully.what should i do now??someone guide me please?why loving someone sincerely also very pain de,i hope that person will knw,n look at me with her heart,love me with all her heart,i dun like sharing.im not childish,im not stubborn,i just seriously need ur attention,even a small thing or little thing u do will make me smile sweetly.smiling from the bottom of my heart.i try my best to please everything.please,pray to god that everything will be okay soon.

*pray sincerely*

ps:for me two is better than one?how about u?

maybe was my fault?

2010-01-30T01:37:00.001+08:00

cant believe just now i get angry so easily.maybe i shouldnt.i should learn how to relax!set my mind relax!

ps:well,no one misses u more than i do

vannila twilight

2010-01-13T00:30:00.002+08:00

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

p/s:yes darling i wish u were here with me.miss u a lot!

me always me

2010-01-10T17:32:00.002+08:00

im always hys.i like to think why why,i like to think ss.coz im ys.but why am im feeling blue now?all the things that i can see is in blue.my bed blue.my fan blue.my room's walls blue.all in blue...lol...im seriously not in a mood now.no mood.no mood.no mood.feel so death.emm...wondering this n that.n jealousy slowly eaten my heart.it is eating my heart now.slowly n slowly...biting me.my heart feel so pain...very pain...started to bleed d....

p/s:not in a mood =/

sien...

2009-12-31T02:00:00.001+08:00

im so sien.this world is so sien!im super sien!i feel so empty.empty n empty.sien plus sien = sien!very very sien...empty!somebody save me pls.

p/s:dun knw what to do.

can u tell me why

2009-12-21T23:07:00.002+08:00

i dun understand why?
something we never do any wrong things but surely got people will accuse us?poor thing.but no matter what,i will continue living happily!lol!

U

2009-12-20T02:13:00.002+08:00

how would i not miss u =)

hey pretty,i miss u!night!XO

p/s:still miss u!

MISS

2009-12-19T02:53:00.001+08:00

I MISS HER!I MISS HER!I MISS HER!I MISS HER VERY MUCH!!='(
im really missing her

P/S:im missing u

18/12/2009

2009-12-18T12:40:00.003+08:00

well,today stuck at home.i wanna say happy birthday to sha-nisse!happy sweet sweet 16 k?aiyo.u old d.may all ur dreams come true.emm.now im quite hungry.feel lik eating.but no food to eat.n lazy to go out.later going out to cut my hair.cant stand with it anymore,long n hot.

p/s: u're the best thing i never knew i needed XD

im lucky?

2009-12-16T14:54:00.003+08:00

well,yesterday was such a great day for me.why?because it is super good.n the feel is nice.i watch zombieland n also princess n the frog.zombieland is ok only,kinda boring princess n the frog ok ok lo.but i think the feeling is great coz u r beside me.haha.well,recently busy busy life.busy with what?actually im also not sure.just knw that i have a lot things to do,but i just throw all the things aside 1st n enjoy my life.well,i get addicted with a song call bad romance.

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it's free
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh--oh-oooh! )
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
'Cause you're a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love-uuhh)

I want your psycho
Your vertigo shtick
Want you in my room
When your baby is sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
('Cause I'm a freak bitch baby! )
And you know that I need you
I want a bad, bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh! )
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk passion baby
Work it
I'm a freak bitch, baby

I want your love and
I want your revenge
I want your love
I don't wanna be friends

Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ton revanche
Je veux ton amour
I don't wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I don't wanna be friends
(Caught in a bad romance)
I don't wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance!

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

ps:yes!i want u.

FAKE A SMILE

2009-12-05T15:37:00.002+08:00

what can i do now?there is nothing that i can do.can i just cry like a baby?o should i just act like a kid?im really hurt n dun knw what to do.dou hear me?do u hear my voice?u say u love me.but u leave me alone.im not being selfish.but maybe i just really need u.give me the hope,spoil my hope too.i hope u will knw the somebody is me!

miserable feeling.

2009-11-29T22:34:00.003+08:00

why am i so pathetic?haha.useless me.fcuking hate this world!cant judge a book by its cover.very pain me.very very pain.bleeding heart.do u wish to save me?im just a worm who is meaningless for everything,feel so hate.im not emo,im not emo.why only me who feel this kinda pain?T_T....

CRYING DEEPLY INSIDE MY HEART!

LCC2009!!

2009-11-28T02:48:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a great day!n im very happy with it!hehe.urban outcast get 3rd place in lcc2009!my god.it is so unbelievable.i seriously feel so happy with it,n seriously wanna say tq to all my band members!they're norman ingan,aaron yeoh n huay shan!after all the hardwork n preparation.really appreciate it a lot man!n a lot of things happen among ourself during jamming,but at last,we make it through our urban way n outcast it!wakaka!what nonsense am i talking?after all,really happy!i believe im the happiest person in this moment!=)

ps:urban outcast is heart!

so this is what happen lately...

2009-11-09T00:45:00.003+08:00

I think it is such a long time i didnt blog d since my last blog.what happen frm october 6 till now?well,lets see it one by one now.this year my birthday is pretty boring like usual but it is still okay.thanks for all the people that wish me during my birthday.n those accompany me during that day.thank you!some of u make me feel so touch.next,lcc audition,my bands r eligible to final n i feel very happy.after all the hardwork,urban outcast really did it!all my band members r rocks!n the insane too!rocks!all the best in lcc!next,i went AAR concert!Tayson is really a good vocal,he sang 12 songs non-stopping!n his voice is still good,awesome.n the concert is nice!next,i went kl shopping!i bought all kinds of collar shirts.my friends say i look better in collar shirt,n i like that kinda style too.i love my converse shoes too.next,i bought a guitar but it is a normal wan only,an acoustic guitar.music is love,love is music.

sometimes,we are trying so hard to get all the things
sometimes,we are really so sad of everything
sometimes,we are tired of thinking
sometimes,we are so sick of trying
BUT
sometimes,hopes r just surround us

dont ever give up dude!u can be the best if only u think u can!

XD

copyright,
hengyuetsiang

XD

2009-10-06T02:57:00.001+08:00

emm...sien la...so fann.why so fann?i also dun knw.i dun knw what will happen soon.i really dun knw.weirdo.final finally finish d.now is my holiday.holiday is sien plus nice.nothing to do everyday except sleep.i can be a little pig d.my blog also can become pig.me n my blog can become pig!muahahaha!!

what am i doing now?

2009-09-27T02:51:00.002+08:00

Recently,im feeling so lost.1stly,i dun knw what am i doing at all,2ndly,i dun knw what should i do 3rdly i dun knw what can i do.now is midnight 3am,but im still awaking...im waiting for something.i quite sure that im really waiting for something.words can express how i feel now,n words cant tell people what i want now.im confused.im so luan...

talk to the star?

2009-09-22T18:45:00.003+08:00

my nephew told me,how good if he is a moon.
i look at him and i smile.
i tell myself i wish i can really be the moon,
so that u're surrouding me all the time.
i wish i can talk to the star always,always,n really always.
u're the shinning star!shine in the sky.

u make me crazier!

2009-09-16T03:24:00.003+08:00

Nw is midnight 3.25.but somehow im still awake.cause i knw that im missing u.there is a song that i really wanna dedicate to u....i hope u will receive it.

I never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Till you open the door there's so much more
I never seen it before
I was tryin' to fly
But I couldn't find wings
But you came along and you changed everything
You lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling
And I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier

I watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe
You lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling
And I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier

Baby you showed me what living is for
don't want to hide anymore orrrreee

You lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling
And I I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier
Crazier craizer

this is how much u affect me.

copyright,
ys

=(

2009-08-13T00:55:00.007+08:00

Today is really a bad day for me?well,i feel so down and sad now.why am i trusting people fully with my heart but what i get is just doubt and also accusing??when u treat people sincerely but u get back is just shit!hey,enough of ur shit words and eat shit la kid!if u continue living like this,u will just live without conscious.u're not deserve to be a man nor a human.PATHETIC U!learn from mistake so now finally i learn something,not to trust people blindly.

PS:u live with ghost kid!siapa makan cili dia rasa panas.

=(

2009-07-24T01:51:00.007+08:00

i dun knw how to describe my feeling now.my mum scolded me n say me like so badly till i become mad n argue with her.well,we keep saying each other.mum,im 20 years old already,can u just give me some freedom?not as in let me go out always is give me freedom!i just hope u will understand me more and understand what im trying to tell u everytime,im big enough to think for myself.im not being ego or what,i feel very pain k!can u pls understand my feeling too??im very stress too!so pls be mature!think for me too!im not a kid anymore!i knw u care about me,i really knw but there is a limit there k!im really stress,i cant tell u how i feel!cause u wun understand too!im sorry,i didnt mean to hurt u too!im really sorry,u dun knw how sad am i.im so useless since last time,i knw i never study before!but now i wun waste money anymore,i will study k!just stop comparing,i seriously hate it!that was my past!so pls!just let me have some peaceful day k!

well,my mid year term is coming soon,my 1st paper is on 25th of july.business mathematics.quite worry for it.cause i haven really prepare yet!but i knw what should i do cause i promise to myself!just study hard,heng yuet siang!or else,u 4ever will only be a failure.

ps:i miss u like usual.wun stop,cant stop n dun knw how to stop!

XOXO

2009-07-11T13:10:00.007+08:00

nah!the left wan ming li,center me the right wan lebeh wan.-.-"

the promise of the ice creams.i will never forget!these ice creams are me,yen lee,siew juan n ming li!haha.we look delicious!

i feel very boring lo before going to work.then i decide to on9.and i saw my buddy ming li is on9ing too, she is so free too.then i chat with her lo.here is our conversation after so many months.

ys:hi
ml:wah!u so free ar!didnt go out with ur gf??
ys:me now single d la.
ml:single,i dun believe u're single!coz everything u say u're u still go out with XXX
ys:warao,u so outdated,break so long d la.
ml:aiyo,u never tell me,u r so hua xing.
ys:no,a lot of things happen ma.now rite i like a gal,but she wun choi me wan.
ml:dun worry la.
ys:this time im sure i wun like other gal d.
ml:sien d.u always tell me the same thing.
ys:paisei,how many time u heard me say this d?
ml:uncountable.hahaha
ys:ur head la!
ml:more than 3 time.

then we two counting actually how many time d
and the answer is more than 3 time!

ml:u so 'hua xing',so i wun believe u anymore.
ys:me super loyal!!!
ml:u knw kapoh broke with jj d?
ys:omg!they broke till they broke d.u really so outdated man.
ml:warao,why i dun knw everythings wan.
ys:sure la,u busy studying only.

the conclusion is ming li is so damm outdated!haha

well,lets me say something about ming li k.she is my very close friend since form4.she is going to further study at US soon.(fuyoh,so rich hor).i will miss u de!hehe.u never hear i say miss u before rite?haha.now im saying this to u!MING LI!i sure will miss u a lot wan!='( this so not me.dun geli knw!friend4eva!thanks for ur support all this while!im here to create a poem to my 3 closest friends.

aiya,no time for poem d!continue later!hehe.thats all for now!haha.

ps:true friends are always there for me!

lucky

2009-07-11T01:54:00.005+08:00

im always lucky,cause i knw u.there is always a reason behind everything that happen.i will accept the fact n face it but not avoiding anymore.how long can i wait?it is more than what u can expect.XD

ps:nothing is impossible girl

My UNI life?

2009-07-09T22:17:00.007+08:00

So now a new life begin XD.a new story is going to start.im reborn as a foundation student.
continue my schooling life.haha.uni life is much more better than my form6 life.coz i can wear a t-shirt with a pants and with a pair of slipper!hehe.i met new friends.and learn a lot of things.there are a lot of things that i need to learn.i like my classmates!they're funny,cute n smart.not like me!so stupid n slow.lolsss....

This is my 1st photo in my blog after 2 years.haha.guai leh.studying.canon took for me wan!thanks=)

ps: impossible is nothing XD

my confession

2009-07-05T02:03:00.005+08:00

hey u!i would like to tell u.i like u very much n nearly crazy d.
cause right:
1.im thinking about u all the time
2.im missing u all the time
3.just u n u n u n u n u
4.all about u

u're happy as usual,im sad as usual.cool right?hehe.mad me.

ps:never give up XD

aiyo.im too emotional d.

2009-07-05T02:00:00.006+08:00

thanks to ws.haha.u're right.im so angry for what.asshole people plus asshole thinking.i should just dun bother about them.im happy now.hehe.i hope next time no such people spoil my concert anymore!haha.relax....i wun care what they say d!haha.

nice 29th june 2009

2009-06-30T12:00:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a nice day for me.everything is just ok.no more insomia!yeshh!now i can sleep better n soundly!happy knowing u 2 months anniversary (huh,sound funny??) i love my university life,im ok with it.i hate account.during account lessons,i will fall alseep.i will open my one eye close one eye.account is just like a sleeping subject for me.really hate account so much.dun knw why.haha.but i will try to fall in love with it soon k!

so random de feeling.

can u see what i can see
can u feel what i can feel
can u knw what u should knw
can u give what u can give
can u just make me smile al the time?=)

copyright,
ys

it is over!=)

2009-06-30T11:56:00.002+08:00

start from now.everythings will be ok liao.settle all the bad things ad.now right,i feel so syok and relax.no more emoness d wor.sorry if i was so emotinal and harsh before this!im sorry!

ps:well,i just realized MJ is a legend for me.i respect him.i will always remember u!

dont think that u all understand me well!

2009-06-27T11:47:00.006+08:00

well,i really don't know what happen till yesterday someone told me something.it is very funny.RIDICULOUS!fuyoh.so powerful sial.i do a special box for some band then revote?then let them won?WHAT THE FUCK!hey people there,for ur information,im not the one who count those votes k!and i guess u all don't know how to respect a competition.the result means everything,so please accept it n respect it!

And PLEASE.don't think that u know me well man!i wont so unfair or so crazy till so pilih kasih k!maybe i really did something that make some people misunderstanding but please it doesn't mean that i will do such thing!what things?for those thought i will do such thing u ownself knw man!

And PLEASE.got anything just talk to me k!dont ever go and spoil other band!cause u seriously will put me into trouble too!u're not a music lover!why?ask urself!respect urself n also music!and for a band that i respect so much but they like put the blame on me,good.there is nothing to do with me man.im also a victim,im just one of the organizer.so please don simply think that i will do such thing when u dun even knw me well.when u dun even knw the truth and my style of doing things!

i seriously learn something frm this case.
here are some moral values that i had discover and wanna share with u all:
1)don't be too naive,and dont act innocent??
2)sometime maybe u really treat others good,but they wont ever know then will treat u like enemy?(this world is so luan)
3)friendly with them but they thought that they are the king or queen.(dun too proud of urself k when u r also one of the childish ass too)
4)sometime when u won't backstep people but they will really gossip u too maybe their mouthsss are too itchy(then go bite something la kids)
5)when u respect them,they dont knw how to respect u too.(dude,u got learn moral wan wat)
6)please find out the truth before u blaming others!!
7)as a human,we cant do what we like man because there are too much of asshole people in this world,they will turn out the whole story and make their own stories!(go write novel better k by using ur wisdom other than making stories and spoil others!!)
8)learn to overcome and solve problems.
9)be patient n be a good thinker.
10)forgive n forget.

that's all that i can share with u all.got anything that bu shuang.i welcome u come n look for me!here is my number 0162251012.find me anytime!haha.not for a fight,but to understand the whole thing.

Im emo!

2009-06-25T23:32:00.009+08:00

I knw emo is not good!but i really wanna to be emo now!i feel so suffer!

No messages frm her,
No missed calls frm her,
No calls frm her,
She will never knw it,
There are so many no frm her.
No,No,No,No,No and No.

the feeling like end of the world?who knows?T_T
haha,maybe not end of the world?dun knw what can i do,except typing now.type n type.dun knw what i gonna write too.

im really welcome whoever come save me.save me if u want n if u can!haha.
Mad X 10000000000000000000000000000000

Homosapiens' 1909 concert!

2009-06-25T22:53:00.006+08:00

homosapiens concert!at last,i did it with my friends.im missing the concert badly now.i really wanna say thank you to some people!1stly!my committee members!thanks a lot!i will name them out one by one:
1)chan seok ling
2)wong yow kit
3)ngow ka poh
4)tan pei lee
5)amanda
6)grace
7)daniel
8)mei ling
9)lee boon huat
10)heng yuet siang

oh,my god!
i cant believe it.ten of us can organised a concert!honestly la the concert was really messy!haha(paisei) cause the problem of pa system lo.the uncle la say by 1.30 will done all the things.who knws 5.30 oli done.sweat rite??so sorry la k?for all people that went support wan,cause the concert was kinda messy!

2ndly!i wanna say tq to my kai mei2!jenn wi and also huay shan n marilyn too!jenn wi,nice n sexy dance!=)very good.and really thank you for helping me sold a lot of tickets.thanks!and huay shan ar,i knw rite,u sell till can vomit blood,so thanks a lot!marilyn ar,you ar,ok also lo got ask ur dancing gang come n support!hehe*tears fall* im lucky to have god sisters like u all!haha!XD

thirdly!emm....radiance frm mgss!wah,for me,she is a super girl sial!really geng!she impressed me a lot!u're rocks!haha.can sold so many tickets!stephanie kuah!thank you too!u help me a lot.then rite xian yu?a member frm evernew band?he is a good guy!haha.chuak ler.ur name apppear inside my post!thanks!n all my friends!thank you man.i can see who is true friends now.*tears drop*thank you.T_T.jasmine,sze ni,su ai,siew juan n ming li!thank you!and those help me sell tickets wan!really thank you!

lastly,who else to say thank you!all the audience for homosapiens concert!thank you people.no u no this concert!i really enjoy a lot!i hope u people too.n for all the mistake that i had done during the concert.im really sorry for it!i will try to upgrade myself n organize a better concert in the future!

THANK YOU!

COPYRIGHT,
YS

what a day!

2009-06-14T16:35:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a bad day for me.after woke up,me n chris prepared ourselves to go mp!actually i feel quite excited coz thought can see my dream girl(she is a evil person)!haha.but sign*speechless* lo...then right i met kiko they all lo,then we go watch movie!17 again.that show ar,ok ok lo.haha,not bad la,but not good.lols.then right night time we go eat satay celup!haha.then night i met them at pure!how long i never been there d ar?i also 4get d.actually i dun lik clubbing but yesterday im so lonely n sien then go lo.so weird yesterday im in love with that noisy music that can conquer my heartbeat,n im wondering,it will take how long for me to fall in love with clubbing??haha!then right i fetch my friends home.4 of them sit behind.it is 3 am early in the morning.oh!shit!u guess what happen.we saw stupid police blocking.damm it.greedy fella them.actually 4 person sit behind is ok wan k,but they so money face!say wanna saman me.what can i do?i talk to them lo.say,bang tolong la.tolong la.but inside my heart i wish i could just slap his face!he is so damm greedy.give him 30 not enough.then say so many people there,takkan so little.at last i gave him rm50 then he oli let us go!bad day rite?haha.me chuak that that time.he ask me how old,i say 20!haha.then after fetch one of the gal home.we go limbongan yamcha!haha.then reach hotel about 4 sumthing!exhausted!end of my day!XD

Sleep vs Awake

2009-06-05T03:26:00.002+08:00

what is the time now.but too bad i still cant sleep.missing who =( ?missing u!im wondering,who is missing me now too?i guess maybe no one.im weird rite?dun u think that in my world there is only love?haha.recently right,a lot of people keep saying be gal la,be gal la.tired of it ler.dun repeat it again n again can o not?just fang guo wo laa.i enjoy my life now.be a tb also good wat.dun care about others.this is my life.rocks it through my ways.thanks for ur concern all my friends.but that is not what i want.what i want is just so simple----->live worthly n enjoy my life!haha.cant wait to see u!XD

My Life

2009-06-05T03:11:00.002+08:00

There are a lot of things that we cant accept,
There are some facts that we cant believe,
There are many hurts that we cant take it,
Always wish that there is an angel besides me,
Always hope that there is something good after bad,
Always wait for miracles.

MISSING

2009-06-04T02:09:00.003+08:00

somebody want u.somebody need u.
somebody dream about u every single night.
somebody love u,without u is lonely.
somebody is really missing u.missing u badly!

the real side of me?

2009-05-29T23:16:00.002+08:00

sometime,im lost.
sometime,i feel so hate.
sometime,im mad.
sometime,i feel so sad.
u're the reason tears drop on my keyboards.
i really cant understand,why why n why?
why u wanna be the one who hurt me so much?
hate every words that you say,coz the things will change.
sorrie for being emo.i will be okay soon!haha.
FORGIVE U=FORGET ALL

happy knowing princess one month anniversary!

2009-05-29T22:36:00.000+08:00

she drives me crazy,drives me wild.cutting me with her knife but the feeling is all i want.

29th of april.she appear in my life.frankly,she did nothing.but whenever i get her reply,im always putting a smile on my face.she is the one who draws thousands of smiles on my daily life.she colours my world.my world is colourful now.she is important for me.n im effin effin like her.XD i HEART U! ^_^

puke!

2009-05-29T22:28:00.001+08:00

oh!damm it!u make me feel so disgusted.i wish to give u a slap so that u can wake up.but please la,a gal lik u 4ver wun knw ur wrong wan la!so rough n no brain!pls la!be mature la k?get my blood bust!i wish i no need to contact with u anymore.whenever i heard ur fake voice,make me puke!!angry man.where got such brainless gal in this world?i cant believe n that gal is u!geli sial!!!

to the noob noob little princess!

2009-05-02T01:23:00.001+08:00

who ar?the noob wan lo?hehe.knw who?haha,guess lo.make me smile all the time!u're rock!

dedicated to little princess!

2009-05-02T01:17:00.000+08:00

yesterday,i found that myself is so lucky.
today,i found that myself is so lucky.
tomorrow,i knw that i will be still lucky.
cause there is a little princess appear in my life!
so im really the lucky wan!

little princess.winks!

=P

wang le ai.

2009-04-06T16:21:00.000+08:00

standing here all alone,winds blow,feeling so cold.
waiting for u,but our distance is just too far.
sometimes,i wish that i could lose all my memories.
sometimes,i hope that u're smilling at me.

turn on the light,but yet im still feeling that it is very dark.
make my move,i take a step forward.
but no one is besides me,walking alone.
i bang all kinds of things,im hurt.

Ponteng...

2008-09-15T14:22:00.000+08:00

Today didnt go school....coz whole class pakat liao....2ml also....we'r going to have our economic paper this wednesday n friday...i hope later i can really study for my eco lo,dun want to disappointed mr.hong....haha.....i hope my trial faster finish....but i scare that time passing too fast....god,i want to leave mhs so much but im so reluctant too...it is my school life,after this im not able to go through all this again....feel so reluctant....but i can do nothing,this is only a thing that i can do now which is enjoy school life n waiting the time to pass....agree??what gonna happen in future??u knw?i knw?no one knws....so just start our day with a simple smile =)

Cheating

2008-09-14T22:14:00.001+08:00

I hate a thing call cheating...i dun wish i will cheat by someone especially the person that i care the most....i hope i wun get any hurts....i wanna to stay happy...

Thinking back all the things,i wanna ask myself...what i can do to set myself free now?why everytime im the one that trying so hard to change?why noone can knws im really trying so hard...even U also make me sad....i wish u're my angel.....by my side always but who gonna knws,my angel is the one hurts me most,give me hopes but cruely took back all the happiness even i dun wan to give it back....i try to stop,i try to hold,i try to change but so what??so what?lols.......so wake up!

In this life,we really need to learn to be strong,loves,promises all will gone without our willingness....be strong!wake up!get over all the things....the heart that bleeding all the time,it is time to get up!try something new,set urself free!think for urself.....live for urself!cruel to urself so that u can learn how to survive...too much to enjoy in this life....slowly learn!slowly enjoy.....learn learn n learn!agree?

Tears so what...tears is nothing...drop my tears again??nope,not going to do this again.tired.n it is enough....learn to appreciate.learn to think.learn to accept.so what??people can understand?noone can.*smile* .........so dun think too much!!do something for myself now!

There is a thing call hope.as long as u believe that hope is after all the sadness,i think my hope can really reach!=)

hopeless....

2008-07-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

Well,today is a very very worse day for me.i thought i will be happy...but im not...today is my close friend jenn's birthday...we go gogoktv celebrate...but im not really happy...well,fyi,im single now....im sad...depression...she is careles about me,well....
feeling so sad,why that she cant understand me lik how i give her...all the cares,loves n etc...
now i feel that i even lose to a necklace..even a necklace...im nothing...
u knw o not....every words that u say,breaking my heart...heavily broken
i feel that im useless...
do u knw that im waiting....
say it when u mean it,
mean it when u say it,
i trust u...
i will trust u...
wish u're here,wish im there when we need each others...
waiting is so suffering n torturing...
but it is worth when we want something desperately...

Angel.....

2008-02-18T17:09:00.000+08:00

My life was flashing before my eyes.a second later,i walked n realized.my heart had crashed and burned in shame.you pulled me from the flames.i took ur hand n u helped me upon my feet.i confessed but you had forgiven me.there's is courage in the truth u said.our love will never end...you shield me from danger,you're my shelter.you're my hiding place.there's an angel on my shoulder,here tonight.making sure that im alright.when im falling fast,you rescue me,you love unconditionally,and when im cold n so alone.back in ur arms i feel at home.i pray that u will always be,a guardian angel.sent for me.my dream comes between us every now n then.i make mistakes,get in troubles,time n again.i ain't proud of who im.when im down,you understand.blinded you can always seem to show the way.you're the light.you're the reason im here today.if u cry,i will cry,so dry ur eyes.there is an angel on my shoulder,here tonight.making sure that im alright.when im falling fast you rescue me,you love unconditionally.and when im cold and so alone.back in ur arms i feel at home.i pray that you will always be,a guardian angel.sent for me...

RUN

2008-02-18T17:00:00.000+08:00

i can choose to run away..but i cant hide it....im feeling sad n my heart gets colder,i need someone to cares for me?what love can do?me ashamed of my own,i walks alone on the road...in this cruel world,there is no one to call my name....before i escape,i kill my own loving heart,the good in myself will be an end.........what the nonsense that im writing now?hell knw.....dreams the world far away........tired....

FUCK!

2007-12-25T16:43:00.000+08:00

well..im tired to being a nice person....wondering why i wun really angry n fight with people!why im so weak!so im here now!i wanna express my feeling!scold something that i never scold before!paisei...it sound a bit rough but then just live with it dude!fuck u!fuck the world!ma de!everytime act innocent!do d admit la..i feel geli man!why le??xiasuei oli!dun think urself is an angel k??u r not!we all r sinful k?i admit im a sinner...im a bad person...i wanna slap people....scold as much as i want!haha!gi siao man!nothing to do.....feel lik wanna scold people now n someone can fight with me not?........suck life le sometime.....i dun knw why??feel so tired with myself....i hate myself....being so paranoid n obviously im not an optimist person......feel lik this world like to against me....sien sien sien!o the problem is with myself?god....where is my doctor?i wanna see d....mental problem...hahahaha....so u all feel lik wanna fuck this blog rite?then just diao it la!come n diao!!fuyoh!hate myself man!lame...lame...lame.......

merry chirtsmas!

2007-12-25T16:09:00.000+08:00

merry chirstmas!well....hihi to no one....emm....today is 25th,yesterday i just passed a very meaningfull but a bit bored christmas....i feel so bad for my dear...coz rite...it seems lik a very boring day for her...acc me go church oli....so kelien!sob2...T.T....sorie k!countdown that day im sure will be better!hehe....well....i received a present frm her....honestly la before she gave me i already knw what she will give d....so not really excited!sound so cruel rite coz i speaked the truth...but dun worry....i lik it k?what she give i also lik!haha better then nothing lo.....tq!my dear!feeling so sien la christmas....lik nothing oli today...cant go out...stuck at home....raining somemore now....haiz......friendship?well....now i really wanna settle this problem...i n my buddy were in a cold wars?although not really but obviously this is a problem that appeared already....scare to trust...she changed??o i changed d?i guess all of us r changing...say bye to the old wan...but usually old wan is the best not?no one knws.....u knw?but i really miss that moments...our memories....haha..walao...say till lik so geli...love lik that...hehe...but really la...why le...coz of a gal??haiz....maybe i care more then her dun care....so now im ready to wake up!i hope they will be happy...n i hope someone will wake up!a lot of people still live in their own world!sign...............lastly,merry x'mas again......god bless k!

feeling suck...

2007-12-21T20:10:00.000+08:00

save by today
well....i really don knw why im feeling this....i guess i hate it!i hate my ex that so selfish....hate hate hate...but i guess i cant really hate her...i think that i hate myself more....why i will lik her before this??what make me so serious with her??hell knw it!this reallly cabar me...i hate lose!im just lik a loser now....well....even love can be a game for me....i hate it!loser!loser!loser!loser!im a loser!no one knws how i feel...i feel sorrie for my gf.....but i really feel sad....dun worry i just miss my ex but not really lik...coz she give me the feeling of my 1st true love....but i guess its just an illusion...sometime i really stuck in the past....maybe im too kiasu....i dun knw how...i feel so lonely....anyone knws that i need loves too?i scare im always alone...there will be someone to save me not??telling people what i feel just will make them feel that im really stupid n lame...i dun want!but i need loves...im not playful as people thought....im regret what i had did before...why dun people just give me a chance again?????serious with me?just serious with me girl....i will show u what is love!n i will love you fully by using my heart!enough of crab...

talk about today....today....early in the morning....i went out d,go eat chicken rice with boon huat n his brother....well...he is kinda nice person but sometime his attitude just lik a kid i cant stand with it man...so kek.....n then we go meet out with other ycc friends...then we walk around to sell tickets...what tickets?im lazy to explain now.....well....today i really feel so blue n moody i also nt really knw why......weird!!somehow i miss gf!haha!